I've been pretty ridiculous. I really hate this. I'm pmsing like crazy. Been crying for no reason. GAH! I'm trying to figure this out. Why am I in so much emotional pain for no reason? :*(

And so I learn

And so I learn to not project things on what I think things should be like

and don't expect this and don't expect that

and always be genuine, though that's supposed to happen anyway

and make sure you keep your part

and don't step on toes

and don't think too hard

and make the fun things you want to happen happen

and have a wonderful life

and make the most of what you've got

and whoever is around is there for a reason

and though you may not see it now, accept it

and make it count

and be happy

and love

and play

and live

and learn

and finger paint

and do whatever floats your boat.

The Things They Didn't Tell You

They didn't tell you about all the other religions out there

about all the other kinds of people

about gays

and lesbians

and bisexuals

and transexuals

and about all the things you have to do to go to college

They didn't tell you about all the myths and legends and creatures

or about all the damages earth quakes cause

about all the food that goes to waste even if you don't eat it.

They didn't tell you about all the animals there are out in the wilderness

not the giraffes and gazelles,

but about the kiwis and the ocelots

and the millipedes and the oxen,

especially the blue kind.

They didn't tell you about the giant spectrum of music that's out there

about the mixing of sounds

and the recording of sounds

and all the millions of musical instruments

and the crazy combinations of beats.

They didn't tell you television is an illusion

and that love is something attainable only to those open to it

and that love is not a luxury but a necessity to be a sane person

and that it makes sense to wait and not to long for it

and that if you long for it what you're actually doing is chasing it away

and that if you chase it you'll be chasing it forever

and like the wind it's so hard to catch

so if you just let it happen things will fall into place and you'll be happy

and They didn't tell you films make things that are not real seem real

and things that aren't supposed to happen happen

and They didn't tell you that what these films do is actually illegal in real life

because if a creeper stalks you and is persistent in real life you're never in a million years going to want to hang out with that person, let alone date them

and they didn't tell you that most of the messages they convey are political and social not really soley for entertainment purposes, unless it's a real artsy film and the creators actually care to have fun while making it.

and They didn't tell you people sleep around and don't care who they hurt so you better watch out little friend!

and that most likely you'll have a panic attack during college if not anywhere else during your life, but most likely you're safe if you survived college without one.

and that you should save money because there may be a sudden depression when you're in college

and that you may need to bend some rules here and there and not be constricted to a pattern of living because it just doesn't work that way

and that you should never do the same thing exactly the same twice

and that for experience you should travel to another country to see what they live like

and They didn't tell you more and more mental diseases are appearing so you need to take care of that brain

and they didn't tell you that chocolate is good for you

and they didn't tell you that life is a big storm that will take you by surprise and nothing is planned, even if you plan it you can never tell how things will actually turn out.

my unicorn and I went for a walk out on the town friday night
it was a chilly night
he didn't have a jacket and was wearing sandals
thought that the weather would be nice bc it was nice all day before then
I hope he had fun with me
I feel like I was kinda dull
we went to a bar to chit chat and he had a drink
I had a coke bc I was driving home later on
it was so nice
a very nice conversation
I hope he invites me out to play again
don't want to be 'that girl' who keeps asking to hang out, but sometimes I just really want his company
oh, unicorn, maybe someday we'll be more than just friends and we can play in a field under the stars, watching the world turn on its axis as we prance about in the stardust and hug as showers of light flash by

corny as anything but I like it this way

I didn't give off vibes because I was afraid
I hope you like me still
maybe you do and maybe you don't
I guess I'll find out soon enough

I don't like you, man.
How to say "Leave me alone" without you not wanting to be my friend anymore?
I must say I do want to be your friend, but that's it.
Nothing more.
Maybe you haven't gotten the point.
I guess I'll have to tell you up front.
It'll have to be next time you make a pass, though, otherwise I may seem mean.
I hope you understand, though.
It's that I just simply don't like you "that way."
That doesn't mean you're a bad person.
Just that *I* don't like you "that way."

So tired recently
so much to do
so many things require my attention.

I wish I could do everything
and have time off
to do what I want.

Like hang out with friends
and make cookies
and exercise
and shop without buying anything
and somehow make the world a better place.

Make the world a better place through theatre
and paintings
and music
and dance
and all other arts.

Arts that breathe life into the soul of those with problems
and those with no problems
and those inspired by love
and those inspired by nature
and those inspired by small things that are insignificant to others' eyes.

And those small, insignificant things that inspire thousands to come together for a cause that may or may not make a huge historical difference, but may mean the happiness for another generation to come.

And then the earth may meet peace.